Last night I had a dream about my father and woke up missing him terribly.
Tonight I went to the visitation of the mother of a close friend of ours. Last week I attended the funeral of the mother of another close friend. Two weeks before that I was at a funeral of an old friend of mine who was also of that generation. It seems a lot of people are leaving. Is this just what happens when you enter your fifties?
I think death seems so strange to us, so unnatural, because we know deep within our souls that we are indeed eternal beings. We do not belong to this world. Our lives here are very, very temporary.
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Rosemary, I know one thing and that is that when it is my own parents time to go, I can cope with their loss with the same quiet acceptance and not become a basket case. Deep inside me I have a very deep fear of losing my loved ones, I know that there is nothing I can do to change it and I have no fear of death for myself, but the thought of either of my children or parents dying before me, those people who I love so intensely, it hurts my heart just to think about it.
Rosemary, please know that I continue to hold you in prayer as you approach this time of joy of our Saviours birth, and yet it is also a time that may be difficult for you as you mourn the loss of your father.
God forgive me if I have phrased any of this badly, it's very early here in Engloand as I've been up with my son who is unwell, and my hearts thoughts may not type so coherently as I would wish them to.
God Bless you and yours.
ukok
p.s. I really liked seeing your photo on the blog page, it's so much easier to 'connect' with someone when you can see who your are 'talking' too :-)
I just read that back and wanted to say that 'I hope' I can cope with my parent's loss, not that I can.
DOH!
It is something we deal with as we and our parents age, and I know that my grandmother has appeared so strongly in my dreams a couple of times, I'd be lying if I didn't say that I thought she was there with me.
Hugs and prayers as you approach this difficult first Christmas without your dear dad.
Deb, you are so sweet. (I figured out the missing 'hope' in the first one. I'm glad you like the picture. I always like seeing a picture too. Since I finally have high speed internet I was able to get it on there (with my son's help) I'm not sure why it's so blurry. Might have my son work on that too.
I used to fear death of loved ones much, much more than I do now. I've now lost, in addition to my grandparents, my mother, my father, my father-in-law, and a sister-in-law who was also one of my best friends. I must tell you it is survivable. God's grace just continues to allow me to go on, believing firmly that I will see them again. And grief...there is a certain sweetness to it because it is so wrapped in love. Do you know what I mean?
Anyway, I hope your son is feeling better and thank you so much for your prayers. I can really feel their effect.
Mimi, thank you for the hugs and prayers. Yes, I do think our loved ones continue to touch us in various ways--dreams, "coincidences" , Prayers answered through their intercession..It is a comfort.
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