For at least 15 years now, maybe 16, I have been a drama mom. Five of my six children were in numerous high school plays and I think I have sold tickets and refreshments at each one.
The shows included: Harvey, West Side Story, Diary of Ann Frank, Midsummer Night's Dream, Les Miserables, My Fair Lady, Hello Dolly, South Pacific, Guys and Dolls, The Crucible, As You Like It, Cinderella, Grease, Sound of Music, Into the Woods, The Miracle Worker, Oklahoma, West Side Story, The Drowsy Chaperone, Curtains, The Man Who Came to Dinner, and many Christmas plays, of greater and lesser merit, written by the students. I'm sure I've also forgotten some too and a few were done more than once with different kids.
I knew this day was coming. My youngest is now a senior in high school. But, somehow, a part of me didn't seem to know it was coming. Yesterday, at Liz's last high school drama performance, I suddenly realized that I would no longer be a high school drama mom. It was a shock.
I'm able to let go. I don't think that was what was upsetting me. I've had five other children graduate from high school. I know what it's like. It's a joyous time with also a layer that is bittersweet. Knowing that your child will be leaving home soon is the bittersweet part. I'm always happy for what they have accomplished, excited for their futures, but also sad that I will not be seeing them so often, that we soon will no long be living in the same house. I have never had a child who was so unpleasant as a teenager that I was happy for them to move on. No, I like having them around. Each of them gives me great joy.
Still, this is a little different because this is the youngest. There is no one coming up behind her as there has always been with her older siblings. And....I will no longer be going to her school, no longer selling tickets for the plays, no longer going to the concerts.
It truly is an end to an era in my life. I have lots of other things I want to do. It's not that I'll be bored. It's just that it will be so different. And certain people will no longer be here.
God has a plan. It will be interesting to see how it unfolds!